I've been doing nothing for the past year! nothing at all! i decline all my colleges offer or even some good one that offered accounting that can make sure that i have a future in life! but what had happened was my parents are moving to america so all the offers meant nothing! but now?

what had happened was that i cant get in collage and like the only way for me to get in college is to be 18! and if i really wanted to get in college i have to show then some proof of me graduating from high school from MEC and it has to send to wes.

wes=world education service

mec is malaysian examination council! i mean what the hell am i suppose to do now? send them an email. like they're gnna really treat me like kinda special treatment! i don't think they're even gnna bother bout me and my problem! with 2 weeks of enrollment! boo hoo.

shit i feel stupid!

the other solution of the problem is i'd have to wait till i'm 18 that mean i gotta wait till august or go back to high school! i mean go back to highschool?yeas i figured it gnna be cool! just hanging out and such! but c'mon it's my life i'm talking bout~ everyone's gotta a big future ahead of them what do i offer? some stupid guy that just sit around at home for 2 years! its freaking sad!and if i go to highschool,i've go to downgrade that mean i've got to enter 11th grade instead of 12th grade! there's 12th grade all together till u graduate highschool.Its like i know i can do better than that but there's nothing i can do about it!

never the less before i can enter the college i had to take this simple replacement test! i mean that test was easy! me,amar and azi which is my elder brother.guess what? i did better than all of them but i don't get better classes than them? i don't get in college! prff! great? i need some solution now? some1 just help me.i'm at the rear of my self confident now! i feel like i'm worthless .

oh yeah and back to highschool.if i entered highschool! i cant just drop out till august cuz they will check and like there's no point of going to high school! i m nothing for 2 years.if i'd known i'd just stay at malaysia and continued study all alone!at least i'll have a future! america land of opportunity my ass! i mean i've shown the my malaysian school leaving transcript and it was written in english and they don't believe it or not authorized to declare it's valid or not! shit ass girl!shoot! sorry for the bad language.

start from klia saying goodbye is really hard! its so hard that all of the great things in we all have with each other reflects in a blink of an eye and it all seems so far away now that im in america!

the fucking sterwardest made me drunk in plane and i was so vomitting all over the plane! whit my parents right in front of my seats! it was embarrasing! its stupid! its the one ting i woudlnt want to go back to!

well reach dallas airport at 6 am! and we drove to our hotel im staying now is at hilton hotel !

its a good hotel! big bed and such!

but yet i know no1 here! hurm the people in america is actually quite friendly minus the airport police! they're so rude! they look at us as if i look at indonesian that crosses over malaysia with no passport and such!

now i know! there is a lot more to conquer in my period here!

the weather here is freezing! ther's snow! and its nice to see snow!

pleasant things to see with ur eyes! but in ur heart the friends that ur leaving can never compare to any scenery!

well for the time being the food here is ok! scramble egg and milk!

anyways i hope i can start studying soon and my head is already gone through a melt down of a year with no readings!

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lve meol